Many things in my mind now ...

Started of the day with something not right . My private instructor forgotten that I had a lesson with him this morning . Hope the rest of the day will be fine . Yea ... I got the confident to make it right .

Haha ... today is Teacher's Day . Message Mrs Hoe to wish her Happy Teacher's Day and apologise for not able to visit her yesterday . After life of Secondary , everybody are busy with their life ...

Decides to blog before starting my Naruto Craze ...

Yesterday , I went for my first private driving lesson . The old uncle is patient with me . Threw the clutch many times . But he very keng , late ten minutes somemore release me on the dot . Then went down to meet Val . Earth to Kama , didn't know to go out with Val or his friends . Again , Bel saves the day ... I was ask out again . Maybe I been through this , so I could understand .

To save money on shopping , we ( actually its me lah , hahaha ) decided to watch movie . I wanted to watch ' The devil wears prada ' eversince I watched the thriller . End up its a good show . It taught us about making choices in life . Like the main charcter in the movie , she is making a mark in her carreer , but during this journey , she lost her boyfriend and friends . End up she realised what is important to her and decided to give up her carreer . Guess there is a saying , ' God gives us something and will take away something ' .

Then we slack around at starbucks and talk about life ... No matter what we said about it , we still have to go on with it . Sometimes we are thankful that certain negative stuff happened and made us a better person . Maybe my parents give me such a good life to the extend that I am spoilt and tampered . I always want to change that but I don't know how . Maybe its like I need time to change ba .

Freak me out , I am 19 and my dad msg me to ask where am I at 12 am promptly . When are my parents going to stop doing that ? Its like no trust in me lor . This world is so big ... they can't always protect me right ? No wonder I never learn to protect myself . I want work , to get out of the house . Keep asking me , why you didn't do this do that . I am 19 !!! I know what am I doing !!!

Was chatting on MSN last night , finally understand why my class guys called me a ' tai tai ' . At first I thought it was like what Val , probably its the way I take my m:)phosis bag . Then I ask him why they called me a ' tai tai ' when I am not one, then he said because I always talk about branded stuff e.g. bilabong ( bilabong is branded then what is LV ?) . Of coz need to talk lah , because you are paying so much for one , when you are talking about it , you are deciding whether to buy it a not mah . If its cheapo stuff , just buy nia lor , no need to think one .

Okie ... serious stuff . Was reading her blog last night . I was sorry that I didn't know so much stuff been going throught her . Maybe I experinece that , I felt like crying , msg him , then he said to me , ' you want to cry , cry with her ' hmmm ... true . I felt guilty , thinking about the fun that I had on Mon . Heard about her news much later , was guilty for many stuff , like not able to be beside her to let her cry on , not reading her blog closely . I lost someone that don't treasure me and she lost someone that she didn't treasure . The difference is I don't regret and she is regreting ... What I needed after a breakup was someone to cry on badly , I don't know whether she need not ...

*** I hope you are not reading this ***
I don't know why I always go to you when I am sad , and no matter what you are able to make me brust out in laughter but we can only be friends . Maybe , you are my HAPPY FRUIT ( your name is given by Val ) , that's the reason I could think of ... Yup , we are impossible de , we will always be friends , cause we always show the sad side to friends ... ( pick a shyt color for this , because this para is about shyt )

-burgurldotzcom- ( I found my hapy fruit ! )

yEa ... I didn't fall down ...

Yesterday went out for class outing with 10 guys,sounds werid huh,I'm the only girl. I also thought so . I wanted to go Ubin badly since the last time I went there was years ago .

Woke up early in the morning , my entire head was thinking of excuses not to go for this outing . Lots of fear in me , like will I fall down , will I feel extra , will they not want me go and many many things . Then I told myself , if I never walk out of this house , I will never know . We were suppose to meet 6.45 at JE . End up ask ex-class rep(albert) to wait for me awhile at my house lrt station at 7 . Hahaha ... make KN thought that we all had left ...

I also made Jia Jia , my senior in bpghs . Thought a lot of our happenings in our life now . Wah , miz bpghs a lot sia , hope I am going back to visit our teachers on 31 August . Hahaha , start chattering early in the morning . Next we board the train and met Natasha , my netball junior . Got , feeling so luckily like a bpghs reunion . Learn few stuff about my friends , got , felt sad .
Stuff change so fast the day we all leave bpghs .

Had to alight at Tiong Bahru , can't talk to Natasha anymore le , thanks to Paul , cause he was late , in fact everybody were late . We said we'll be reaching Pasir Ris at 8 am , but we reach there at 8.15 like that , its wasn't that late afterall . Kind of gong gong in the morning . Bryan is the late king of the day ...

Okie , talk about cycling . Hahaha , Albert said that I need not fear of falling down becasue Paul will fall down 1st . Hahaha ... his words came true . Through this cycling experience , I learnt to go down a slope . It was my fear for many years le . I remembered the last time I went to Sentosa , I fell down twice because I don't now how to go down this steep slope . The tracks in ubin were bummpy and rocky . Better than I-gallop sia . I almost flew out of my bike .

Haizzz , now my butt pain , leg pain , arm pain ... preparation for Friday night cycling ...

Kk ... that's all for now then ... byeeeeeee

-burgurlzdotzcom- ( butt pain pain )

The breakup ...

Waiting up early the morning , started the day off by updating my blog ... Haha ! told you all before le ... I am going to mass blog ...

Yesterday was my last day of Sem exam , can't wait to get out of the examination room . The exam was 9-11 , I left the room at about 9.50 . I really did study , but its 30% only , can do .I rang up my both friends and asked if we can meet earlier . Originally was 12 , I rang Evan up and asked her to leave the house after she is ready , she was shock and say I should stay in the room longer . Then I rang up Val , she said she will be in orchard at about 11 , but I'm bored waiting for them for 1/2 hour , so I went to the National Dental Center to look for her . She was paying the bills and was waiting for the nurse to fix the appointment for her .

Reached Orchard at about 11.15 , Evan waited for us a little while . Haha ... got what I wanted . I wanted to treat myself to shrimp dumpling , happen that Food republic has 1 outlet of XIn fu ying cai jiu lu . Evan didn't want to go there , she thought that it was a food court and its not nice to treat Val too . But she changed the moment she walked passed the stores . Its like all the best stores were located there .

After that , actually intended to play pool , but it was expensive , so we went to watch The Breakup . Should have gone to play pool . Crying on the last day of sem . Was watching this movie , pricked me during one part of the movie . It reminded obout my past relationship . Girls like to feel appreciated else they will feel like they are taken for granted . The same moral of the story as 'Click' , don't take things for granted . Giving too much makes 1 tired to the extend that she had nothing to give le .Val laughed at evan for crying , end up she too cried . Haha ... End up we three cried . Catch this movie if you have the time , I don't mind watching again .

Was asking a friend where to play cheap pool at Orchard . End up he didn't reply so we watch movie . He replied during the movie , message him after the movie and told him that I should play pool instead of watching the movie because the movie made me cried . He called me a monster because he thought that I cried till my eyes zhong zhong ... ZZZ ... big bully !

Then we went shopping again . Hahaha , Val kept looking at pictures of food instead of shopping . Hahahaha ... First time sia , instead of looking at clothes , bag , shoes , we keep looking at food . End up we went Crystal Jade Lai Mian . We shared 1 bowl of lai mian , and we each had 1 long of dumpling . 3 of us share the red bean past too . Like that $27 ... Consider Crystal Jade is reasonable le .

Then we went to m:)phosis at taka , realised that it is having 30% discount storewide .Then we went to P.S. to find my friend . Luckily , i didn't buy it at taka , I saw another top that fit me better at P.S. and I bought it . Haha ... some habits are hard to die , always going home with an extra bag . Slim down very good , look good in the clothes .

Was very worried , I will get fat after eating supper last night . So I weigh this morning , luckily , weigh maintained . Think because we shop till too hiong liaoz , from 11 - 8 . Shopping Queen !

That's all for now !

-burgurldotzcom- ( shoppingz queen ! )

23 August ...

1 paper down , I have no confident in the past three papers . Probalby its because of the previous broken relationship , didn't really concentrate well . If this sem , my G.P.A. is over 2.0 , I will be glad . 1 more to go ... bEl , jIa you !

Kind of guilty , having to drag my relationship problem into my studies . I never been like this ... probably my 1st relationship , find it hard to let go ba ... ( bEl ! ... you are not ALONE ... ) Talk to Mirabel just now , I am ready to concentrate on my studies .

Looking forward to next Friday night cycling . Been craving to cycle for a long time . Now can cycle till I siao le ...

Feeling Xin Fu ... just wake up from my nap . Fee ling hungry , I went down to find a Zinger burger . Just when I was craving for KFC ... Then Mirabel give me advice ... what more can I ask for ??

Gosh ... most many post to type ... Happy reading !

-burgurldotzcom- ( 1 more to go ! )

20 August ...

Seems like I have been demoralise by my previous two papers . Didn't want to do any revision for the next two papers since Friday . Been chatting on MSN for hours . Don't know why time files when I'm on internet .

No television programme for today ! Its national day speech ... Bored so I on my laptop to see if my friends online so that I can chat and eat at the same time . Sadly , nobody ...

Haha ... went online fo another purpose , to get exam tips from my friend . Been poning classes missing so stuff a bit . Zzz , but my printer malfunction ... Cannot print the past year sem paper out . Its like getting everything expect from the north wind .

Was watch Naruto online , gosh ! Don't like the new format , lots of crap . So draggy ... Really want to know whether they have pass the test not .

Okie ... kept my mood le ... ready to study again .

-burgurldotzcom- ( bEl is ready to study ... sae this a long time le )

18 August ....

Second sem paper , confident to pass nia . Better than the first paper . Kind of stress out by the both paper , so jio Cindy to Lot1 . Ask her pei me buy Pooh's mattress . Been promise Pooh Pooh for a month le . Felt guilty not fullfilling it . Yea , Cindy was right , I sooner or later will buy it de .

Haha ! I think the weekly amount of words I spoke in class is lesser than the amount I spoke to Cindy within hours . Gosh ! Think I save up many words to talk to her .

Last night , was don't the which day of hungry ghost , went downstairs to pray , but I didn't really prayed . I kept removing the plastic from the paper money . Jie talk a lot of nonsense , think Qian Long will scold her if he was there . I help to carry the stuff to the place where we were going to burn , it was a big stack . Dad said I had the most blessing , Ha !

-burgurldotzcom- ( kai shi dong le )

17 August ...

First day of semester exam . Didn't want to talk about it . Its a killer paper . That stupid lecturer came into the class and ask about how was the paper , any difficulties . Can't be bothered to answer him , had to complete the paper .

Crap , all this are crap ! The paper was so difficult . It wasn't like those test or worksheets he gave . The question were straightforward back then . I stared at the paper several times as I had not did such questions before . I was aiming for a 'A' for this module , guess this time I won't get it . If I have a 'C' , I will be happy enough .

Was reading the newspaper . Several thoughts in mind . Kind of pity those glamrous stars , their blog is like an online dairy for them and it was being exposed by the media . Then I came across this letter to the newpaper , regarding the crowd misbehaviour . I think she misunderstood .
People were shouting becasue those people who came late , delibrately squeeze through the groups of people who were sitting down . And as they were standing they blocked the view of those who were sitting down . I reached there about 7.15 , and the place is already 3/4 full . Can you imagine how early they came ?

Next I read an article about ' Monster Girlfriend ' . My first thought was , ' Haha ... Who ask you go for girls with pretty face ? ' . Then I thought of my ex , whom had friends who like clubbing and is a playboy too ! I remembered feeling the insecurity as chinese has a saying , ' jing zhu ze chi , jing mo ze hai ' .
But I still have to just convinced myself to trust him . Then I remembered I didn't sleep well till he come back , which its like 3 am . For my personal view , its alright to your boyfriends to club as long as he remembers to call you when he reached the place , it shows that he wasn't carried away by the scenary out there .

Haizzz , one paper down , three more to go , got to work hard so that I need not further my studies outside of Singapore . It is very expensive to study outside of Singapore . It really puzzles me , why people look up to enginneers ? Weird . Cause I kind of not like the course I was studying . Got to admit , compared to others , I am consider slacky le . Inspired by my dad to study ba ...

-burgurldotzcom- ( 3 more to go ! )

11 August ...

Leg super suan sia . Just reached home after watching fireworks with Val . We waited since 7.15 . Its worth it because we got a good spot . Its not squeezy or stuffy . Cool breeze from the sea , everybody was sitting in their respective places .

At about 8.45 , people who came late start squeezing through the gaps to the front . This was totally unfair to people who came before 7 . Those people who was sitting down got angry and shouted for them to sit down . Serves them right ! They had to squat down .

The fireworks were beautiful . I like the part where the fireworks seems any how being shot into the sky . This vedio would be better than the previous one because I got a good spot .

We intended to slack at starbucks . But we end up shopping for stuff and Val forgot about her meeting on MSN with her friends . So we parted our ways .

Hmmm ... hasn't been touching my lappy for 5 days le ...

-burgurldotzcom- ( I loves fireworks ! )

9 August ...

Happy Birthday Singapore !

Haha ... I chiong home just to watch NDP , I love Singapore ! Its a sad thing because it is the last year at the Kallang stadium.

Before that , went out with family to meet the designer . Saw the rough layout of our renovation plans . Like the idea that all the soft toys need not to place into the cupboard , they are displayed onto the a plane fixed onto the wall . I will get a super single bed .

-burgurldotzcom- ( looking forward to the new outlook of the house )

8 August ...

Didn't expect to blog today not until Val jio me to watch fireworks .All thanks to Kama , he didn't know to go out with Val or his sec school friends . To save him from making a tough choice , Val decided to go with me so that Kama can go with sec school friends . For the best of both worlds , I was asked out , to accompany her to watch fireworks .

Bro didn't get to go out in the morning , so I decided to ask him along . We manage to reach on time . Bro was making lots of noise when waiting for Val . All thanks to Kama , Val was late because Kama was eating slowly .Dotz ... Phew ! Bro wasn't a dao kia , the atmosphere was fun , kept talking and joking along the way .

The fireworks was great ! I love it a lot ! Haha ... think its everybody's favourite ba ... We reach Espanade at about 8.15 pm and its already half filled with people standing . It was hot and stuffy . So we had to wait patiently for about 20 min . It was humid as people were standing close together . For the 15 min of fireworks , it was worth it . Manage to take a vedio out of it . Not very clear , all thanks to those people carrying their girlfriends up and down . ( You can ask from me if you want to , I can send you )

After the squeezing out of the crowd , we head to Mache , bro acted gentlemently , by paying for our meals using my Mum's money ... hmmm ... how gentlmen .Then we parted . Met Mirabel since she is going home , so ask Dad to give her and her friends a lift .

Finanical update , think PSP got to postpone le ... Saving money for other stuff .Haha ... some habits are hard to die ...

-burgurldotzcom- ( Girl with many wishes )

7th August ...

Started the day off by arranging my notes and preparing to start revision for semester exams .

Then I started counting the money in my piggybank . Zzz ... kind of broke because been saving since the start of the year , and now its already August .The best part was I was planning to buy a PSP . Got addicted after playing my friend's one . Oh my god !I am 19 without any saving , how can I ? Within 2 years , my account will start deducting money because it falls below $500 ...

Took a bus 190 to Orchard to meet Val . We arranged to watch 'Click' . Along the way , I was reading 'Little Prince' . Then my 'bookmark' , its a tee tag from this DCP tee , a cute monkey picture printed on the tag , fell onto the floor. I started searching it anxiously . This guy who was sitting behind me , saw what I was doing and started looking around and picked up the bookmark for me , placed it against the window . I saw this hand slipping best my back and saw my bookmark . I turned and smiled at him because I knew he picked up for me .

Haha ... fated to go P.S. . My friend happen to be working , so I got some discount while buying the bottom , and also my friend's gift .

Okie ... the climax of this blog . Its about the movie "Click" . I thoughts were , the remote contorl represents one's thought towards negative stuff . Some people choose to escape it by pressing fast forward button . So the same measures taken when the same problem arise . Some people chooses to escape from problems and took stuff for granted . As I always say " Why does one realised that something is important to them when it is lost . But its too late , its gone means its gone ... "

Evan later message me when I was on the way home . She waited at the bus-stop to pass me a birthday gift . I was shocked cause she already gave me a treat . It happen to me the same Pooh speaker like Poohyee , so decided to called it Pooherr . Haha ! Pooh had became my trademark ...

-burgurlzdotzcom-(I tresured my stuff a lot ! Every little thing counts )

Xi xin gift from amy ...

Too tired to blog yesterday , so I shall begin blogging today . Yesterday was the gathering of my life coaching group . Together we also have a mass birthday party where we celebrate everybody's birthday , no matter its over or not over . Got this birthday present from this coachee . She gave me 4 things . 1 of it is for my mature self , 2 of it is for my childish self and 1 is neutral self . Hahaha ... am I muti-personality ? Find that act kind of xi xin , really touched me ... Probably like what she said , sensitive people lik sensitive people ba .

Though yesterday didn't play anything exciting , just some simple card games . When it come to murderer , zzz , she ask a lot of question sia . Kind of funny because she really ask a lot of questions . Probably that is the different style of learning habits . I remembered I learn games through playing it again and again . Slowly get the gist , the stragey to win the game . All thanks to my secondary school mates , they taught me many card games .

Start the day of with a cup of milk in the cup that cindy bought for me . Haha ... thought of another purpose for the box that is used to contain the cup that I am using . I can use it as my piggy bank , haha , my piggy bank is like kind of not much space left , so can transfer some coins over . By the way , another way to save money is to delibrately not to use coins . It really works . Keep using notes , that's why my piggy is going to be full . And yes , you got to resist the temptation of using the coins in the piggy bank , unless you really really really no money to eat food . Another method is to resist the temptation of taking cabs , they really cost a lot when you really calculate how much you spend on them , specially now , cab fare has increased .

Yesterday , I was also watching superband , kind of sad , Lucify didn't win . I find their style is kind of fresh in Singapore . The jap kind where their styles are between unique and errie . Haha ... That's my view only . Anyway , MILUBING won , think because of their youthfulness ba . So nice to be a youth (smiley face) .

Think my programme for today is reading other people's blog , no worries , will only read your blog if you give me your blog add . Cool to have a blog , I always have this san fen zhong ren du for diary . With blog , I am very enthu blogging about my life . Imagine , ten years down the road , I am reading all the past post . Having a nice laugh about them . Its all about growing up ba .

I haven't finish , planning a study plan for my semester exam , watch tXX fXXX tXX fXXXXXX again , but this time with sound . Hmmm ... changing to exam mode ba also .

That's all for now ... won't be blogging so often le ... till something big happen again ... Bye bye ...

-notigurldotzcom-(evil gurl grinning away evilly)

AGV presentattion day ...(updated on the cup part)

Today is the day of my group AGV presentation . After 15 weeks of planning and fabricating , within a day , its all became scrap metal . Though its a simple design without any fancy design , fabrication wasn't easy , especially like machine noob like me .

I stilled remember the first day I started doing some fabrication . I have a lot of fears , fear of been injured , fear of spoiling the workpiece , fear of making the wrong dimension , lots of fear inside me . Then she told me , just do , spoil never mind , just do can le . Finally , stepping out of my comfort zone , took the metal plate , and mark . Then I want to cut out the plate , the TSO demostrate how to cut one side of the plate , then I do the another side . Kind of scary , the saw is moving up and down , if I don't pay attention , my finger will be GONE ! I manage to relate it will sewing machine , use my 101% of effort to do it . Ta dang , a base plate is done !

Finally felt that I am doing something related to my course . Took a vedio and a few picture of the AGV before it all become scrap metal . After taking the vedio , I played a little to see the effect , feeling super happy , was grinning away . Then Kenny(TSO) was laughing at me , then Joan said , happy till like that .Wah ... felt kind of sad because the AGV dismantle le(Check out the ablum and friendster for the pictures and vedio ).

Haha ... today specially meet cindy at Lot 1 to check out this booth , selling disney stamp and sticker . Can put my own name and choose my own design . Haha ... kind of nice ... like it a lot !I was flipping this demo book , saw a this couple stamp , XXXX love XXXX ... so sweet !!!
Cindy got me this Winnie the Pooh cup , kind of cute !!! But I still want my Pooh Pooh cup ! This pei pai me do revision ba , I don't drink coffee so use it to refill water or to drink my favourite milk from ba .

Hmmm ... that's all for today ba ... trying to cut down my time on msn ...

-bEl-(the guRl who is crazy about winnie the pooh)

noti deed added(updated:sha da jie ...)

My confession : I wasn't listening to teacher during lecture , watching tokoy drift via friend's handphone . Haha ... no worries* , the worksheet lecture gave is with solution so I didn't miss out much . So pai seh , he let me hold on to his phone for about 2 hours because I wanted to watch tokoy drift . Then after I return him because I didn't know how to go back to the main menu , afarid that I did not close his application properly , so I return him to where the movie stop . Then he showed me his handphone and said see left 2 battery , ah pay back ... (Zzz ... how to pay back battery ???)

Kind of angry at the starting of tokoy drift , the guy is so egoistic that he inorge the fact that his girlfriend was scared and was hurting when he banged the other car . What the ... I think its better you lose in the race than to lose your girlfriend lor . If she is the one , how many times can you lose her ,does it mean that you can get her back everytime you lose her.

The ending keeps me wanting to watch the next too fast too furious , didn't have ending again . Don't say le , want to know , watch yourself , I didn't know much of the content because I was watching it without sound . The sentence that hits me is " I didn't I know how to drift , its because you never asked " . You will never know something if you never asked ...
The math lecturer(ji go pek), disturb sia , ask me go his house and bring a blank paper and he will give me all the solutions . Then I asked him to post on the blackboard , then the whole class laughed at me because I didn't get his dirty meaning , then my friend said , no blackboard , bed got lah .Zzz , lonely old man are all like this .

Didn't really listen teacher's lecture the whole day , don't know why keep asking each other those lame and IQ questions . Then he said , Eh , I know how to tell fortune . He said , you know how to save money sia , because in between your fingers there are no holes . Then we three start comparing fingers , Zzz , see see my hole bigger ah , means I spend lots of money . Then next was palm reading , if there are broken lines on the plam , means you are now facing some difficulties , I got 1 broken line . Then he said , if the top of your last (smallest)finger reaches the top line of your fourth finger(the finger nexts to the smallest finger ) , it means that you have good life . Then the lecturer asked , you all three trying to read fortune ah .

Then other he said , I also know how to read fortune , from 1 to 9 , choose a number. Then I said 5 , then he said , don't tell me the number . Then I said okie okie . Then start again ... after following some steps , then he said id a=1 , b=2 , c=3 ,d=4 ... don't tell me ah . Then I said "okie , d" .Then he said , "don't tell me ,what lao , sha da jie leh" . Then all 3 of us laughed . Zzz , I still very puzzle why I know I cannot tell him yet I told him ...

Getting nearer and nearer to semester , no time to prepare them because of the tests . Manage to do IA lab test , copied her answer . That the prob when you absent too much .

Haha ... many people joining the pon club liaozzz.

-bEl-(I am bEl e guRl that is nOti)